Born Confused

insightfulhomie (4:27:58 PM):salams

me (4:28:04 PM):salaam

insightfulhomie (4:28:38 PM):so i read for 2 hours near the end of the autobio of malcolm x and i cried…..its amazing

me (4:29:04 PM):it’s one of teh best books I ever read

me (4:29:09 PM):the author became muslim

me (4:29:11 PM):i met him

insightfulhomie (4:29:18 PM):alex haliey?

me (4:29:23 PM):yes

insightfulhomie (4:29:49 PM):yeah malcolm x is like no word describes him than a humble wow

me (4:30:09 PM):he truly was a man of truth

me (4:30:16 PM):and persuaded it fearlessly

me (4:30:22 PM):and he was humble

me (4:30:42 PM):he took back all he’s invested beliefs before hand

me (4:31:10 PM):and he persuaded anything he thought had truth no matter what the cost–esp his own

me (4:31:12 PM):he was strong

me (4:31:21 PM):insh’Allah we can learn from him

insightfulhomie (4:31:31 PM):if god wills it.

insightfulhomie (4:31:35 PM):yeah

insightfulhomie (4:31:40 PM):like the part that i cried at

insightfulhomie (4:31:46 PM):was when after mecca

insightfulhomie (4:31:47 PM):he

insightfulhomie (4:32:24 PM):says ” Dr. Azzam said Ma’shallah meaning ( if god wills it)”

insightfulhomie (4:32:35 PM):and i cried because even though i speak arabic fluently

insightfulhomie (4:32:38 PM):half the time

insightfulhomie (4:32:41 PM):everytiem we say

insightfulhomie (4:32:43 PM):inshallah

insightfulhomie (4:32:45 PM):or mashallah

insightfulhomie (4:33:14 PM):we say it soooooo fast we just mumble together the word and like as a result of that we mumble and take away from its meaning

insightfulhomie (4:33:19 PM):like last night

insightfulhomie (4:33:27 PM):i realised that ma’shallah

insightfulhomie (4:33:29 PM):means

insightfulhomie (4:33:34 PM):what ever god wills

insightfulhomie (4:33:58 PM):like i said it SLOWLY for the first time in my life and im like WOW its actually ARABIC!!!

insightfulhomie (4:34:15 PM):idk, liek that really touched me…

insightfulhomie (4:34:31 PM):ok ilana, i gtg

insightfulhomie (4:34:34 PM):peace

me (4:34:50 PM):oye I understand completely

me (4:34:57 PM):and i am sorry you have to go

me (4:36:44 PM):but yes, we take advantage of such beautiful phases Allah has betost on us. and i am incredibly honored you shared your insight with me–truly god-willing you will have many many many more that fill you up so much that they move you to tears with haqq

me (4:36:47 PM):peace