Born Confused

(inspired by this picture–which wasn’t taken by me)

There’s something within me,
a climax–a moment to lose then share–
heart wants to be exposed laid bare…
but keeping in mind time maxes
curious how you feel the pain in your chest it pulls, turns and twists
and for what? Not even a risk–
for that involves chance—
yet, all we know of the heart is that it is a pump
and yet it is felt a lance
of romance, piercing pain;
back and forth oh heart– what stance?

A joyful day a laughing day of eyes wit and hearts then upon pictures I gaze and an aura is transcribed, my interpretation might be a lie but here I shall tell and try: a mist of gray twilight of confusion and beauty and a gaping hole. tis the beauty of humans the spirit, the hurt and trust…overwhelmed by it all ran outside under the full moon, sobbed wepted the glory of God and bestowed with an inkling of it’s depth.

me (11:24:40 AM):salaam what is that a pic of?
thought (11:25:07 AM):wa salamz
thought (11:25:15 AM):a hand giving a heart to another hand
me (11:25:32 AM):ew
thought (11:26:06 AM):lol
me (11:26:33 AM):yo do you know anyone that interputs dreams?
thought (11:27:05 AM):I’m always skeptical of people that claim to interpret dreams
thought (11:27:14 AM):I don’t think there’s much merit
thought (11:27:19 AM):in trying to decipher them
me (11:30:05 AM):of course you take everything with a grain of salt, but just because I don’t understand it doesn’t mean I disregaurd it. I know a couple of times when people were right on the ball, eerily so… and perhaps not much merit, but a loveable curiosity and I don’t quash that with the bore called logic
thought (11:30:31 AM):lol ok
thought (11:30:33 AM):wonderful
thought (11:30:42 AM):it’s just that I know some people
thought (11:30:48 AM):who get so caught up trying to find meaning
thought (11:30:58 AM):in something beautiful
thought (11:31:18 AM):when the real beauty is that it’s from yourself
thought (11:31:44 AM):you don’t have to search for it
thought (11:31:48 AM):it’s right there before you
thought (11:32:03 AM):and on the contrary
thought (11:32:12 AM):I think trying to find such meaning
thought (11:32:19 AM):is what’s really quashing it with logic
thought (11:32:35 AM):trying to decipher and break it aparr
thought (11:32:35 AM):t
thought (11:36:32 AM):try typing in
thought (11:36:34 AM):sentences
thought (11:36:36 AM):instead of blocks
thought (11:36:38 AM)::)
me (11:36:38 AM):trying to discern something is apart of intellect , being open to others interpretations of something beyond us (which sounds a lot like pluralism in religion, or just religion in itself) holds merit and valuable insightfulness to enrich understand and a greater scope of possible meaning… in which is the crux of this discussion–unless you hold it worthless.
thought (11:36:57 AM):no no
thought (11:37:00 AM):I agree completely
thought (11:37:05 AM):I’m just saying personally
thought (11:37:15 AM):I rather find beauty in the abstract
thought (11:37:26 AM):then try and give it some confines of reality
thought (11:37:34 AM):because dreams are of another realm
thought (11:37:45 AM):and I think one of the most beautiful things we can do
thought (11:37:52 AM):is share our dreams with one another
thought (11:38:25 AM):lol do you know who you’re talking to
thought (11:38:34 AM):when it comes to being open to others’ interpretations

me (11:39:43 AM):i was about to ask you the same thing, when you described trying to decipher beauty and break it apart and quashing it with meaning and logic
me (11:41:31 AM):but perhaps you did have that assumation of me?
thought (11:41:47 AM):sigh
thought (11:41:49 AM):of course not
me (11:41:54 AM):got ya
thought (11:42:02 AM):but do you see what I’m saying
thought (11:42:08 AM):how the abstract
me (11:42:10 AM):indeed and i agree
thought (11:42:11 AM):can be be more beautiful
thought (11:42:15 AM):ok

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me (3:04:02 PM):it’s spelled “con”-”science”?
me (3:04:13 PM):LOLz, is it adverse to science?
me (3:04:17 PM):the fitrah?
thought (3:04:25 PM):lol
thought (3:04:26 PM):that’s
thought (3:04:38 PM):actually an interesting point
thought (3:04:52 PM):never thought about that
thought (3:08:21 PM):but I dunno if I’d agree with that
thought (3:08:27 PM):the ftra being contrary to science
thought (3:08:37 PM):because the fitra always seems to make sense
thought (3:08:41 PM):the gut instinct
thought (3:08:44 PM):is the most rational
me (3:09:34 PM):or science failing to describe the soul, i think the fitra something a bit more and pure then gut instinct
thought (3:11:18 PM):yeah
thought (3:11:20 PM):I agree
thought (3:12:11 PM):I like that
thought (3:12:14 PM):I’m gonna steal that
thought (3:12:18 PM):lol